是不是該讓自己休息了?Is it time to take a rest?

這是歐洲野牛再吃東西. These are European bisons, eating.

今天一早起來，突然好想家。但這麼樣的情緒也馬上被緊接要來的期中考和"台灣還好嗎"地擔心埋入心理。自從上次和V談話後，我覺得我得更認真了解台灣究竟發生什麼事了?然後才能和這裡地更多人討論，要是我沒說，他們應該也不會知道吧!
但是人一天真的只有24小時，然說我抱著"只要我願意，沒有事情是不可能的"態度，但是我忽略了我不夠強壯的心和我不是機器人這件事。要求自己早上起床去看鳥，ˋ要求自己早上坐在圖書館，下午上課，班晚再坐在圖書館，最後晚上蒐集台灣的資料，一天下來，我就覺得好累，隔天下午，氣候變遷的工作坊結束後，我只覺得心理不想運作，腦袋是知道我應該再去學什麼。後來我回宿舍了，而且去了超市，我給我自己20克朗，決定可以買我喜歡的東西。

然而，心理真正的快樂，往往都不會是金錢能買到的，昨天我想找人說話時，我竟然想到粘粘，然後晚上更神奇的是，她竟然敲我FB!

所以今早起來，我知道我還是需要休息的，看書，關心社會議題，都是好事，但並不代表自己的感覺就是不值得重視的事。
 I  woke up this morning. Suddenly, I missed my home so much. But this kind of feeling was soon buried in my mind by the anxious of the up coming midterm exam and the how-are-Taiwan's mind state.  Since the talk I had with V, I thought I should pay more attention to what's happening in Taiwan. Then I can discuss with people here. If I didn't say the news, they wouldn't know.
But everyone really just has 24 hours a day. Though I kept telling myself, if I would like to do it, nothing is impossible. I ignored my not-strong-enough will, and the fact that I was not a robot. I asked myself to watch bird every morning, asked myself to stay in the library in the morning, asked myself to go to class in the afternoon, asked myself to stay in the library in the evening, and asked myself to gather the information about Taiwan at night. After the day passed, I felt so tired. On the next day, at the end of the climate change workshop, I felt my heart didn't want to move! My brain knew what I should learn next, though. I went home instead, and gave myself 20 kron to buy things I like in supper market.

However, most of the time, happiness is not something you can buy with money. When I wanted to find someone to talk, I though about 粘. And surprisingly, at night, she really called me on FB.

So today, as I waked up this morning, I realised I still need to take a rest. Reading and paying attention to social issues are good things. But that doesn't mean it is not important to take care of my own feeling.