永遠是白天It never gets dark

五月，春回大地。自從五月一號，下了一場雪後，就正式和白色的季節說再見了。大地換衣服的速度比我想像中的還快，不同顏色的花，早的，晚的，就像五線譜上的豆芽一樣，井然有序的到來，然後想要早睡早起也越來越困難，因為天在遠方的某一角，總明亮。我的脈動，雖沒有跟著太陽而行，所謂的日出而作，日落而息，但，我感覺到，不是只有大地從漫長的冬天裡醒過來，瑞典人也是。

學校裡，要寫一個case study， 一篇恐龍報告，還有每周出野外，最後一次考試。生活第一次這麼緊湊。
但是回顧這一個月，我想到的卻是不斷失去平衡，錯過了meeting的時間，傻傻得把鳥音混在一起，讓老師有些不能接受，還有第一次感覺到對朋友的信任被咬掉。會難過，可這世界仍有養分可以讓你我再反回健康。有的時候那是朋友的幫助，有的時候是自己對人的信念。

我錯過了討論的時間，而理由到真也不被其他人覺得重要，但因為這樣，接下來反投入更多的心力寫Case study。

我其實還再尋找平衡，Circledusale 的團長說，平衡不是不動，平衡對他們來說是一直動。我想在這轉動之間，能完成各面相的事。
報告和考試，不是糊里糊塗的做，也不是一直塞，我想想作者的論點和我的論點，應該是可以邊讀邊寫的，最後在花時間整理，因為大至上的架構是有的。而考試，我更需要多面相的經驗，去認識一隻鳥，一隻青蛙的歌，或者是一條魚的樣貌，但現在看，我只能去博物館和用電腦，和最後一次出野外了。

然後，莫忘了，以誠待人。
May! Spring came back. After the last snow on the first of May, we said good bye to the white world. The speed for the land to change cloth was much faster than I imagined. Different colors of flowers popped up. Some came earlier, some came later, but all were coming in an order, just like the beam sprouts on the staff. And it got harder to both get up and go to bed early. Because somewhere far away in the sky, was always bright. Though my pulsation didn't work the same way as the sun did, following the Chinese idiom, waking up when sun rises, and taking a rest when sun sets, but I could feel as the nature waked up from the long winter, so did the Swedish people.

At school, I needed to write a case study, an assignment about dinosaurs, and having excursions on every weekend, and a final exams. Life had never been so busy for the first time in Sweden.
However, looking back on this month, I can only think about me, keeping losing balance. I missed the meeting time. I mixed up all the bird songs, which was the thing my teacher could not accept. And the first time I felt the trust I have for a friend was been bitten away. It was reasonable to feel sad. But in this amazing world, there is enough nutritious for you and me to bounce back. Sometimes it is help from friends, and sometimes it is the belief of trust we have for human.

I missed the meeting time, and the reason didn't make sense to other people. Because of this mistake, however, I spent more time and effort doing the following works, trying to make up my mistake as well.

I was still looking for balance. The ringmaster in Circledusale once said, "For us, balance is about keep moving without falling. It is not about standing still." I thought I could deal with these different things while keep turning around.
For assignments and exams, I didn't want to do it with empty head, neither do I want to keep stuffing knowledge inside my brain. I want to think about the points of the author and the points of mine. I should be able to write and read at the same time. And spend some time to organize it at the final part, since I knew the construction to a degree.
About the tests, I needed to have more experiences. To get acquaintance with a bird, a song of a frog, or the face of a fish. But it seemed like I could only go to the museums, and have my last excursion.
And, remember, sincere and trust are the elements to get together with people.