斯德哥爾摩的電影節Film Festival in Stockholm

那是個漫長的一天，我第一次到斯德哥爾摩，卻沒有好好感受瑞典的首都，因為我待在電影院，看了兩部長的記錄片，和一部短的。這次電影節主題是浪費，我和我的朋友前幾天去ICA的垃圾回收處， 撿到許多香蕉和水果，並做成這次電影節的FIKA(點心)，也算是和這次的主題相呼應，主辦單位很歡迎我們這樣做，因為我們真實的呈現給大眾，有多少食物被浪費，這些食物其實都還很完好，也都還可以做成好吃的點心。

這次電影節，我最有感覺得是其中兩部，先說第一部吧!
"Traffic Dance"(垃圾之舞)，主旨是要告訴我們當垃圾清潔人員可以是值得驕傲和有藝術性的工作。影片是從一位編舞者的角度拍攝，她進入社區裡的清潔隊，想要讓清潔人員跳一場關於他們工作的舞。
一開始，清潔隊內上上下下的人都對此嗤之以鼻，長官對這件事的想法是異想天開，基層人原則認為他們怎麼可能會跳舞，更別說主題和他們的工作相關。但編舞者實際參與他們的工作，從清潔一般的家庭垃圾，動物屍體，到節慶後髒亂的街道，她和這群人有了最基本但重要的認識，基層的清潔人員於是願意嘗試她的跳舞構想。

那場表演有清潔人員常用的大卡車，和各式各樣的執行清潔任務的車子，雖然那是個下雨的晚上，但非常多的居民參加。他們看到清潔人員的厲害的方，重新想清潔人員對他們生活的意義，漸漸的，他們對清潔人員的一些看法改變了。後來，清潔人員收垃圾時，他們都會互相打招呼。
在影片最一開始，其中一位基層人員說，我害怕我的孩子對我的工作感到驕傲，只是因為她(還小)覺得我開大車很酷。但我想，他的孩子會逐漸從"很酷"的感覺，也許受社會價值影響演變成"不認同"，但她終會因了解期意義，而感到驕傲。

我喜歡這部紀錄片，因為其呈現一個重要但不被重視的工作，可以透過藝術，被人重新認識和定義，還有，也看到編舞者的行動力，她把所有人認為的不可能，變成可能。

"工作的價值，究竟如何定義?高薪水，少勞力的工作就是比較有價值的工作嗎?"我問自己。為什麼媽媽聽到我想當農夫就不斷的告訴我要回歸現實，又為什麼金錢可以定意這麼多價值?我認為農夫是很重要的工作，他提供了人們最基本的生活需求，而且我還相信，當農夫絕對不是只要付出勞力，如何栽種植物，讓她們對環境友善的同時，也能長的挺拔翠綠; 當農夫也不是不需要生意腦袋，他們要懂得如何行銷這些作物。所有的這些事，背後的最後理念是永續發展。當我想一件事該如何做，我會想先問自己，這會是"永續"的事嗎?

永續發展和食物的關係是我在瑞典體認最深的議題，我看食物的製作過程如何影響氣候變遷，思索著食肉的意義，實際看到一桶一桶的食物被超商倒入垃圾堆，而我和這邊的朋友又如何把這些食物變成一餐請所有願意來的人吃，因為這些刺激，讓我覺得食物和人的關係不只是單純的生理需求，食物的生產影響到環境 ; 想當農夫，還得挑戰社會價值，認為這是不理想的工作; 人們對於食物的價值和丟棄食物時的態度讓我覺得還需要改變。

我還有很多事要學習，很多事要思辨，我的大學教育能帶給我建立這些觀點的基石嗎?這些刺激應該不會只出現在學校裡，很多例子會活生生的出現在生活中。

第二部我想分享的記錄片很沉重，是關於車諾比事件，片名是Metamorphism (變態，((型態改變))老實說接連看了兩場記錄片，一整下午又在斯市賣力騎腳踏車到戲院，我其實覺得內心已經裝不下訊息了，所以有些片段我睡著了。整體的內容是，核能廠發生意外後，很多具輻射的物質被排放到鄰近的河流。但，沒有人告訴當地的居民，他們只知道不能太靠近那條河。輻射的影響，存在於居住在這片土地上的人，並且是世世代代的。影片以黑白的方式呈現，最讓我心理不能負荷的是一開始，一張張居民面孔的特寫，他們看著你，大約有十秒，沒有背景音樂，只有風聲呼呼的響。他什麼都沒說，但他本身，就說盡了所有事，這些瘡疤，存在於人類歷史上，我要學會如何與之共存，為什麼當局者要隱瞞?

影片結束後，一張張的面孔還是出現在我心理，我身後的一位俄羅斯同學，舉手分享她的想法，"我住的地方，離那裡不遠，但我現在才知道這條件事，所以非常謝謝你們有這部紀錄片..."她說。我無法想像那種感覺，我真的無法。她後來在我回過身時對我說，"沒錯，這是其中一個我不想回俄國的原因。"我只覺得更加沉重了，她就是活生生的例子。

我還沒懂得如何和這種瘡疤共存，我只覺得好可怕，但要如何改變，我還沒有頭緒。只是整件事情，突然讓我想到，我還是很幸福的，因為我"可以"回去，就算台灣的政治亂，就算台灣的經濟不好，但我們還有可以居住的環境，這足以讓人懂得珍惜。

我不知道斯德哥爾摩的感覺，因為我只來看電影，但這些電影讓我重新再看看自己，火車票很貴，但是我很高興我有來，這些事值得思考很久。

It was a long day. This was my first time to Stockholm, but I didn't have time to really see the city. Because I stayed in the theater, and watched two long documentaries, and one short documentary. The theme of the movie festival is "Waste."  My friends and I went to dumpster diving in ICA. We collected a lot of banana and  fruits, and made them into desserts, as fika for the film festival. It matches the theme of the festival as well. The organizer welcomed us to do so, because it really showed how much food had been wasted, how perfect it still was, and how delicious desserts it could still be made out of.

This time, tow documentaries stoke my heart the most.
The first one was Trash Dance. Its main idea was that being a trash cleaner, you can be proud and make the work artistic. The film was shouted through a choreographer's standpoint. She participated the work with local trash cleaners, and thinking about having them to perform a dance about their job.
At the beginning, everyone in the trash cleaning team thought it was ridiculous. The officer thought it as an impossible thing, and the trash cleaner didn't believe they can dance, not to say the dance had to be related to their job. But the choreographer joined their work. From cleaning the normal home-trash, dead animal bodies, to the messy and dirty streets after festival celebration. She had a basic, but important, understanding of those people. Those people would like to try her idea of performing a dance.

The big trunks that the trash cleaners used frequently, and a verity of vechicles related to cleaning showed up at the performance. Thought it was a raining night, a lot of local people came. They saw the amazing things these trash cleaners could do, and thought again the meaning of trash cleaners in their lives. Gradually, their perspectives toward these people had changed. After that, when the trash cleaners collect trash for people, they greet each other.

At the start of the documentary, one of the trash cleaners said he was afraid that his child felt proud of her father's job was only because she was little, and she thought driving a trunk was a cool thing. I think, his child maybe would change her view from just being cool to disapprove, influencing by social standard. But, finally, she would be proud after she understands the meaning of it.

I like this documentary, because it revealed how an important but being neglected job can be rethought and redefined by people through art. And the determination the choreographer
 showed. She turned things that were impossible to other into possible.

"How to judge the value of a job? Does a high salary and low labor-work job equal to a much valuable job?" I asked myself. Why my mother kept telling me to be realistic when I said I want to be a farmer? And why money could weight the value? I believe being a farmer is an important job. It provides the basic needs of everybody. And I also believe it doesn't only need labor work to be a farmer. How to cultivate an ecofriendly and greenish vegetable garden at the same time? Being a farmer also doesn't mean you don't  have a business brain, because you have to think how to market these crops. All of these things are within the view of sustainable development. When I think how to do a thing, I want to first ask myself is this a sustainable thing to do?

The connection between food and sustainable development is the issue that influences me the most in Sweden. I saw how the processing of food affect climate change, thought of the meaning of being carnivore, and watched how a bunch of food has been wasted, which my friends and I turned it into a meal, and invited people who were willing to eat to come. Because of these simulations, the meaning of food toward people is not just about fufilling physical need. The processing of food influences environment. The idea of being a farmer is being disputed, which the society see it as a not-ideal job. The value people give food and the attitude people have when throwing food away push me to think that these still have to be changed.

There are lots of things I need to learn and to reflect. Can my education in university provide me the fundamental ability to think this? I think these stimulation will not only occur in school. Instead, lots of the examples are happening in reality.

The second documentary I want to share is quite intense. It is about the accident in Chernobyl, and its name is Metamorphism. To be honest, I felt sleepy after watching two documentaries, and tired o from working really hard to bike from station to theater in Stockholm this afternoon. My brain can not load  more message, so in some clips of the movie, I fell asleep.

 The overall idea of the movie is that after the accident, the radioactive elements were dumped into the river nearby the nuclear power plant. But, no one told the residence there. They only knew they shouldn't get too close to that river. The effect of the radiation exists on the people living on that land, and it will exist through generations. The film was shoted black and white. For me, the most unendurable scenario happened at the very beginning, which the camera had people's face occupied the whole screen.  They looked at you, for about ten minutes. There was no background music, only the sound of wind, echoing "Whoo, whoo." He/She didn't say anything, but he/her self, already said everything needed to say. Why the local authority hid the news?

Their faces still came up to my mind after the film ended. A classmate sat behind me raise her hand and shared her thoughts. "I live not far away from this place, but I didn't know this until now. So thank you very much for having this film..." she said. I can't imagine that feeling. Really, I can't. When I turned back, she told me "You see. That's one of the reasons I don't want to go back to Russia." I felt more depressed. She is a really life example.

I haven't established the way to live with these scars. I scare. But how can I change? I haven't come up with an idea. However, the overall incident makes me think that I am still a blessed person. I "can" go back!  Though the politics in Taiwan is not stable, and the economy is not that idea, we have a place to live. That is enough for people to cherish.

I don't know the atmosphere in Stockholm, since I just came and watched the films. But, these films pushed me to see myself again. The train tickets were expensive, but I was happy I had came. These things are worthy to think.